Career vs. Job

At 22 I didn't expect to start my  forever"career" however an offer came my way to become the CEO of my own company selling insurance through Farmer's...you know the catchy commercials "We are farmers bom bom bom bom bom bom ba" or something like that. On Monday I drove to Roanoke to meet with a smooth-talking insurance salesman that has been in the business for 37 years and loved the sound of his own voice. I listened to him and nodded for 2 1/2 hours, in that time my mind went back and forth many times at moments it sounded like an amazing opportunity and at other times I was almost dozing off.

He wanted me to sell insurance in Blacksburg on my own, which sounded intriguing and the money sounded great but I just couldn't get the thought out of my head that I don't have what it takes to be a salesman and even if they could train me to do it, I wouldn't be able to stand myself by the end of it. Don't get me wrong I'm a good bull-shitter I couldn't have written all those papers in college if I wasn't but I'm not good at blowing smoke and believe me there is a difference.  He tried his best to convince me that it would be "helping people" and I know insurance is just that but it seemed wrong that I would be able to fly to Vegas at a moment's notice (as he was about to do the next day) and that would somehow be "helping someone." I had not completely decided against it until I got a call to set up another interview in a doctor's office just as a secretary, although I do not desire that to be my career that is a little more of what I had in mind for this time in my life. I intend to go back to school next year and do not think that would be possible if I were trying to run mmy own business. I don't mean to bash the insurance industry many people are very succesful at selling insurance and help people daily but in the end, I just couldn't do it.

I am excited for my interview next week in the pediatrician's office and while that may seem like a menial job to many, I know I will be much more satisfied and there is no price you can place on that. I cannot wait to see what God has in store for me in the future, I hope to share my love of history with another generation and spark an interest in others to appreciate their heritage. As my uncle wrote to me in a card he gave me for graduation asking me to "keep history alive" and that is my new theme.

Jesus never fails.