Humbled.

Mr. Blue Jay is always the first visitor at my feeders in the mornings. The early bird catches the worm, or sunflower seed as the case may be. He's a little aggressive and uses his size to his advantage. And when pretty Mrs. Cardinal comes in a little while, he'll run her off. (ironically, he's also the most skittish and difficult to get a picture of)

I'm a little like the blue jay when I'm hungry. Not pleasant. I'm ashamed to say I came in at 9:00 from class last night and raised a stink that one of Drew's friends had eaten the last Pizza Hut cheesestick. Not my proudest moment.

Yesterday, by the grace of God I passed my PRAXIS II. I had failed by 2 points in December and was under a bit of a time crunch in order to be accepted into my program at school in time. But God provided. Drew said he knew that He would but I doubted him. Perhaps, tempted him even.

You see, I didn't really study this time. I was bitter after studying my butt off last time and failing. I would sit down to study and get completely overwhelmed and watch 4 episodes of Friends back to back instead. But on Monday morning (the day before my test mind you) I sat at my kitchen counter watching mean ol' mr. blue jay and cried out to God. I needed him and I knew I could not do it without His help.

And he heard my cry. Humbled by my failure, I had to have his help. God was there as I answered questions about Portugal, GDP, and John Locke. (believe it or not all of those fall under Social Studies). And I passed with 10 points to spare. That wasn't me. I don't even know where Portugal really is if I'm honest. (don't you want me teaching your kids??)

I just wanted to let you know that God provides, but you all probably knew that already. I'm the one who doubted.

Don't underestimate the things that I will do

I have a job! Thank goodness. Since January, roughly, I have been praying that I could find a job in Blacksburg after Drew and I got married. I knew that if I didn't Drew and I would struggle very much once he went back to school (perhaps struggle isn't a strong enough word, more like starve). I had worked at a home health company called ResCare last summer in Roanoke and went back for a while in December to help them out. I always thought that they may offer me a job but I really didn't want to have to travel an hour to work and an hour home 5 days a week and on the interstate  no less, blah! Therefore I concentrated my job hunt on Blacksburg, mostly jobs at Virginia Tech. I steadily applied for over 40 jobs at the college and never heard back from one of them.(embarrasing I know, my sweet husband tried to convince me I was just over-qualified) It was very frustrating and disheartening.

I got a call for a job I had applied for at the hospital but the money they offered me wasn't quite what I had hoped for with a college degree. I began to feel like I had wasted four years of my life and was only being offered positions I likely could've gotten straight out of high school. However, a couple of weeks ago when I was home I got a call from my old boss at ResCare in Roanoke. By this point I was grateful for anything and would be happy to drive to Roanoke every day but she told me they had some other opportunities. I have been back at the Roanoke office for a week now and today the company offered me a full time position in the brand new (they haven't even found the office space yet) office in....drum roll please.....BLACKSBURG! God is so good! The company had just recently decided to put a spider branch in the New River Valley and said they automatically thought of me. God answered my prayers ten-fold! He has given me a job with a company I believe in, in which I have already made a name for myself and have earned respect and it will be right in my back door. I'm so sorry I ever doubted God because he has exceeded all of my expectations and Drew and I are so grateful. We won't be billionaires anytime soon but I will be helping people and all of my life that is all I have ever wanted in a career. Thank you God for your blessings!

Jesus Never Fails.